you can’t save everybody
Art, Daily Creative Practice, Writings on Life Estella Tse Art, Daily Creative Practice, Writings on Life Estella Tse

you can’t save everybody

Being with ultra compassionate and empathy-driven friends, this is something we’ve been learning — and still struggle with.


Or maybe that people can be saved - but not by me.


There’s a limit of what can be done; there’s a limit of how much can be given; there’s a limit to capability and capacity.

I spoke tenderly to a friend last week about how there’s a part of me that wanted to be the hero. I wanted to take pride in being the savior. There’s so much history loaded there with my role in my family and the pain I wanted to take away (and absorb!!!) from my parents. If I could hold it, maybe they wouldn’t have to suffer. I was young, I had so much capacity, I could be their container.


I think that showed up in some of my hardest moments in life, too.

If I don’t have needs or wants, I could make sure others will be released from their suffering.


Martyr mentality! WHOOF!!!…….

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breathe easy
Art, Daily Creative Practice, Writings on Life Estella Tse Art, Daily Creative Practice, Writings on Life Estella Tse

breathe easy

ahahahha going onto Instagram feels like I’m being pummeled with a barrage of sounds and stimulation - and I have deleted it from my phone already after making that one reel the other day. ahahhahaha

Things I’m learning to accept and understand about this phase right now:

  • I do much better with quiet

  • I do much better with controlled input to my nervous system, mind, attention, and focus

  • There’s no need to feel guilty or selfish for that. It just is.

  • My creativity and mental health THRIVES without the external noise.

  • My creativity and mental health THRIVES in my day-to-day life with……

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can there be a new way of making things?
Art, Daily Creative Practice, Writings on Life Estella Tse Art, Daily Creative Practice, Writings on Life Estella Tse

can there be a new way of making things?

How might I move away from social media to engage with my audience?

Is it possible to build a brand in the modern era without exploiting the attention, social media addiction, and (already diminishing) energy of my followers and supporters?

I want to create to nourish, to replenish, to provide reprieve for my friends, family, and followers of my work. How might I do that?

And - can my art do that for people?

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Rewiring Neurosystems
Art, Daily Creative Practice, Writings on Life Estella Tse Art, Daily Creative Practice, Writings on Life Estella Tse

Rewiring Neurosystems

The early stages of moving from Scorpio South Node (intensity, transformation) to Taurus North Node (stability, embodiment) often involve creating structured routines as a necessary foundation. However, the mature expression of Taurus energy isn't rigidity but adaptable stability—like a tree that's firmly rooted yet flexible enough to bend with the wind.

From a neurobiological perspective, this is part of the recalibration process. Your nervous system first needs consistent routines to establish safety, but eventually needs to develop flexibility within stability….

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