Estella Tse 4/14/25 Estella Tse 4/14/25

the other side of grief

I am incredibly lucky to have the life that I do.

As I get a bit older, I do believe I am very, very lucky. I feel I have guardians that protect me. I feel that I have a strong compass of what I believe is right and wrong. I am extremely grateful for the deck I’ve been dealt - to have safety in many forms, to have love in SO many forms, to have opportunities, and to have the innate optimism and discipline to make more opportunities for myself, too. I have a lot of supporters, I have a tremendous support system.

I am lucky to be gifted an ability and openness to feel deep connection with nature, humanity, and the things beyond our physical realm.

Perhaps that’s why VR feels natural to me. It’s an extension of how I feel - in my body AND externally out into the world(s) around me….

Estella Tse 4/11/25 Estella Tse 4/11/25

worthy of calm

Do you believe you are worthy of calm?Do you believe you are worthy and deserving of the calm + peaceful life you desire?

I’m learning to shed the need for immense intensity, chaos, unpredictability….

Estella Tse 4/7/25 Estella Tse 4/7/25

old grooves

who do you give access to your nervous system?
whose words and actions are allowed to access your core?

Estella Tse 4/2/25 Estella Tse 4/2/25

miss bryan

Every day, I soak in how much life has changed since having Bryan in my life. She's my little sidekick, my confidante, an incredibly cute wellness reminder who follows me around.

Her lighthearted outlook on life is infectious. And I’m determined to ensure she has the best life possible….

Estella Tse 3/29/25 Estella Tse 3/29/25

forgiveness

beauty in the grief.
beauty in the loss.

Estella Tse 3/27/25 Estella Tse 3/27/25

Mending

Art therapy sesh piece.

Trying to understand why I’ve been in a trauma / depressive state the last few weeks. It’s been a rough go.

I spoke about this conflict of knowing intellectually that slowing down and doing nourishing things are good for me.

And then it gets to a point where I feel like I’m Good™. I no longer need the crutch of “wellness” practices because….

Estella Tse 3/27/25 Estella Tse 3/27/25

I am worthy of peace and calm.

I am worthy of feeling fulfilled in slow, meaningful actions.

I can let go of the trauma hustle, the intensity and chaos.

I deserve stability and deep joy.

Estella Tse 3/27/25 Estella Tse 3/27/25

Untitled

mostly still in pain
still trying to be gentle with myself, allowing myself to BE.
not forcing or pressuring one way or another.

Estella Tse 3/27/25 Estella Tse 3/27/25

Untitled

Do you think a Depressed person could make this?🙄

Estella Tse 3/27/25 Estella Tse 3/27/25

Untitled Splats

CPTSD means the pains hurt a lot on some days - in ever fiber. And it's a lot of resting, compassion, and LETTING myself.

Estella Tse 3/27/25 Estella Tse 3/27/25

Reintegration

For some reason, we're taught to segment our Selves into boxes: work, home, friend, daughter, online, in-person, etc.

Bravery in weaving it all back together.

We were never meant to be split up to begin with...

Estella Tse 3/24/25 Estella Tse 3/24/25

Burn-Out

Whoof! The last two weeks have been a rough go. I’ve been pushing hard with my entrepreneur ideas and likely burnt myself out pretty hard.

Some old habits are hard to break. The hustle fire was the attitude that fueled my successes, and it’s deeply engrained in me to feverishly work with tunnel-vision to achieve my goals.